I don't know what to write about

...but I will since it makes me feel better.

Lately I've been trying to make my life a lot more productive since it takes my mind off of certain things and actually makes me feel good. I've been reading more, seeing more films, meeting new people and going to open casting calls for short films and small productions. It took quite the cataclysmic event in my life to actually get up and do something. I've always dreamed about being an actor of some sort, but now I'm making it a goal for me. Because dreams are only dreams if you don't do shit about it. So now, it's a goal haha.

Which leads me to something I've been thinking about a lot lately.

"What the fuck am I going to do with my life?"

Honestly.

I've realized, just as my degree in Graphic Design is almost coming to an end, that I don't really want to be a graphic designer. The only reason I chose to do the damned uni course was because I thought it seemed like the most logical thing to go for at that point in my life. And now I've aspirations in film and theatre (haha, and to think I wanted to become an English teacher back in high school). Which leads me to think: "Will I even give a fuck about acting in a couple years time? Or will it just turn into a monotonous chore that graphic design has become for me?". It makes me wonder if I will just become a drifter, the dude that just jumps from one thing to another, depending on what seems most "awesome" at the time?

I guess I shouldn't think about these things and just go for whatever the fuck I want to at the time.

Meh, I don't know.